Gotta get back to the things I love. Painting. Man I haven't painted a picture or a piece of furniture in FOREVER. And dedicated time with the love of my life and my sweet babies... Reese got the whole American Girl Samantha book collection for Christmas. I can't wait to watch her dig into that now that she's starting first grade. Samantha was my favorite when I was a girl... probably because she was so close to her grandmother. I'm still very close to my grandmother. We had a great week when I stayed at her house with my kids last week...
With school starting back this week, I'm so burdened about being intentional to rule my schedule with things that matter this semester, instead of letting our schedule rule me. I don't know how many of you find yourself feeling like this- but it seems as though I wake up with ridculous expectations for myself and for my day, and they're not just ruling my time, they're ruling my heart... ruling my mood and my emotions. And here lately I look around at this AMAZING family God has blessed me with and... I feel like I'm easily grouchy, treating them at times like they're imposing instead of brightening my life like the jewels that they are... and I just want more of them.
I feel like I got it right today. Wake up, eat breakfast, put cute clothes on my cute kids, and go BOWLING. Celebrate their strikes thanks to bumpers and those awesome ramps that Ty and Tessa bowl with. Target run for new arm-floaties, because IT'S STILL SUMMER and my boy loves to swim. PB and J for lunch, and a momentarily quiet house while they nap. Then thoughts race through my mind of a woman on the other side of the world who is desperately trying to protect her babies from those that want them all dead because of their faith. And I'm humbled and I pray for her and I'm overwhelmed with the thought of how good life is today. And I'm so grateful for it.
As far as 'summer' goes, I'm glad to see the busy-ness winding down. The Lord has given me a lot of grace just as He's allowed a lot to be put on my plate over the past 3-4 months. Between losing my dad, (I mean can we just get real for a second and ask HOW in the world he's already been gone nearly 3 months?!?) two camps, two mission trips, the amazing-ness that is VBS, baby-showering and baby-welcoming a new niece, all while still juggling work responsibilities and being wife and mama, my head has been spinning for weeks now... The Lord has been so faithful to keep me in perfect peace throughout every step of it, when I've kept my mind on Him, but I think I'm ready for my mind to be allowed a little more of the being still for a bit!
So here I go. Granting myself, (and you if you need it- ha) permission to close the book on and reject busy-ness at a time when it should seem like the opposite would be occurring. Permission to embrace a new school year instead of dreading it. Busy-ness is a state of mind. I want to choose to be present instead... with the grace of God, I wanna drink in each opportunity that's put in front of me.